My biggest fear.

Wow,, I am being very open with this one. It is a common fear. A lot of people have this fear. I know this for a fact. My son has the same fear. I did not have this fear as a child. It took a while to develope this fear. My fear is .......the DENTIST.

When I was a little girl, I was curious. My denstist was a military man. He was very clean and well shaved. I learned that he gave a way little toys if you were good. I was very excited. But I quickly learned he had a perverse dark side. He would not wait till you were numb to work on you.

I know for a fact that he loved watching me squirm in my chair while he drilled on my teeth. I kept telling him it hurt. He told me it is impossible that he had numbed it. But damn,, it really hurt.

He finally retired. Dad got dental insurance, we got a new dentist. This dentist was great, I really like him. No problems. I grew up moved a way got married. Then my husband introduced me to his dentist. I will call him Dr Dread. He as really a nice guy. It was his office I dreaded. By this time, I was weary of dentists.

I explained to him the problems I had with my other denstist. That I was having trouble emotionally coming to him. I also explained that my teeth by this time were overly sensitive to hot and cold. He told me he would make me as comfortable as possible. So I continued to go to him. It was fine for a while.

Well as time went on, I started to trust him. Then it happened. I had to go in and have a tooth pulled. No biggy,,, just a wisdom tooth.. one on each side. He pulled them no problem, he packed them with cotton. The cotton was soaked with clove oil. Then he gave me pain killers and told me not to take them on an empty stomach. He also told me not to gargle or suck on anything (?) because I would get dry socket. Well,,,, the cloves made me sick to my stomach and I could not eat anything and so there for could not take the pain killers. Oh did I mention this was on a Friday afternoon??? I suffered all weekend. No pain killers, no food. I was dry heaving.

Monday rolled around, I went in to Dr. Dreads office, I told him I was in pain. He said take the pain killers. I, still with cotton in my mouth, told him I could not because I was sick to my stomach. He said, well you have to eat to take the pain killers so eat. I told him I could not because I would through up. After 15 minutes of struggling to get through to him that it was the packing that was making me sick, he offered to repack it. But he started to soak it in cloves again. I told him no. He didn 't understand. He said it would make me feel better. I told him it was making me sick to my stomach. So reluctantly he just repacted my gums. Then 3 days later the pain really set in,,,, I had dry socket. I was in pain,, bad pain for 5 days straight.

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